Well I had an interesting conversation with my brother this morning. It began with the brother sister banter we often have in the beginning of every conversation but it quickly turned into a discussion about mental health and perimenopause.

To give you a little background….My brother and I are extremely close. He’s “my person.” We talk about everything and anything so its not uncommon for us to get into subjects such as these. I explained to him that I have decided to give our space a little extra love, and I also shared that a part of me wants to let my tribe know about it. He immediately responded by telling me I should share it on my social media. I told him I’m hesitant because I’m afraid of being judged, which immediately led me to think about the stigma associated with mental health in general and also how it relates to this chapter of our lives. We speak so freely about hot flashes, weight gain, fatigue etc. yet women rarely speak of depression, anxiety, loss of libido, body odor and all the rest of these taboo subjects. Now I understand that some of us may have only one or two and maybe even none of these symptoms (although I’m hesitant to believe this) but for the majority of us we are going through these exact changes. So why I am so reluctant to introduce this site? Why am I scared for my friends and family to read about my struggles when deep down I know that many of them can relate? WHY CAN’T WE OPENLY AND FREELY TALK ABOUT THIS?

I created Let’s Pause so we can openly share our journey yet I’m still hiding the fact that I have this site. Am I a hypocrite? I definitely think this warrants some serious thought.