As I have mentioned in previous posts that I have begun ERP therapy for OCD. I have dabbled, if you will, in this type of therapy before. But I’ve always given up before my treatment began to work. Exposures are tough. And what’s even more challenging is the response prevention. Most days it’s one step forward and two steps back. But the moments of clarity are profound. I’m beginning to have hope that I’m making progress. Mindfulness is a key component to ERP I think I’m beginning to understand the concept…bringing our ourselves back to the here and now. OCD brain spends a lot of time on past and future so its important to bring our brain to the now. So yesterday every time I found myself drifting, which was all day, I would gently bring myself to the present moment. And by the end of the day, I realized that my anxiety had subsided. I felt good and actually found myself thoroughly enjoying my day.

BTW, I know my posts are all over the place but I’m just trying to make sense of all the facets of my life. It’s as if my brain is a rubik’s cube and my goal is to align all the colors. And some days I get on here and just don’t want to write. I have never been much of the journaling type but I know its important for my mental health. And honestly it feels good to get it out.

And, if I repeat myself in some of these posts please forgive me. I attribute it to perimenopausal brain fog! That’s all I’ve got for today.

So as always, let’s pause, breathe, and embrace the journey.